get to see amy tomorow :D
i'm sooooooo excited!!!!
i'm never leaving her for more than a weekend!!! :P
5 weeks is long man!!!

but i gotta travel =/
and i hate going on the ferry!
i always get to sea sick :(

i miss amy too much :(

only two more days to go! :)

i love oranges they always put me in a good mood :)
there sweet smell and flavour just brightens up my day :)

For so long
I saw only wrong
But now to remind
It's a waste of time

Close your eyes and see the sky is fallin...

i know for a fact that being in two bands is going to be the most draining thing...
but if one of them makes i wont have a care in the world :)
and im hoping to be in loads of projects and bands and just broaden my horizions musically :)

if i cause you so much pain why do you stay?

I LOVE YOU MORE!!!

im not going to post an inspirational speech from someone who's changed the world
instead im going to post the ramblings of a completely insane man...

Their sneakin' in the county jail, lookin' under the door, to see if the man is there, sneakin' like little children out of town, heh heh heh, sneakin all around the courthouse, sneakin' in out of the ventilators sneakin' everywhere, everything is sneaky up around sneakyville, heh heh heh heh.
Everything that we have to do to get to the truth has to be sneaky, it seems a shame to sneak to get to the truth, to make the trust such a dirty old nasty thing, you gotta' sneak to get to the truth, the truth is condemmed, the truth is in the gas chamber, the truth has been in your stock yards, your slaughter-houses, the truth has been in your resivations, buildin' your railroads, emptying your garbage, the truth is in your ghettos, and your jails, and young love, not in your courts and your congress where the old set judgment on the young.
what the hell do the old know about the young? They put a picture of old goerge on the dollar and tell ya' that he's your father, worship him.
Look at the madness that goes on, you can't proove anything that happened yesterday, now is the only thing that's real, you can try to proove that columbus sailed on an ocean but it's not the same ocean, it's a different ocean, it's a different world.
Everyday, every reality is a new reality, every new reality is a, is a new horizion, a brand new expireince of living.
i got a note last night from a freind of mine, he writes in the note he's afraid what he might have to do in order to save his reality, as i saved mine.
You can't proove anything, theres nothing to proove, every man judges himself, he knows what he is, you know what you are, as i know what i am, we all know what we are.
Nobody can stand in judgment, they can play like they're standing in judgment, they can play like they're standing in judgment and take you off and control the masses, with your human body, and they can lock you up in penitentiaries and cages and put you on crosses as they did in the past, but it doesn't amount to anything, what they're doing is, they're only persecuting a reflection of themselves, they're persecuting what they can't stand to look at in themselves, the truth, they can't stand to look at the truth in themselves, they persecute themselves, they're butchering themselves evertime they go on the freeway, they hate themselves.
Look at the signs, stop, go, turn here, turn there, you can't do this, you can't do that, you can't you can't you can't, this illeagal, that is illeagal, everything's illeagal.
The police used to watch over the people, now they're watching the people, the president doesn't represent the people, he should be on the roadside picking up his children, but he isn't, he's in the whitehouse sending them off to war, and you're saying i have to pay for this again, and again and again, ive gotta' pay for your sins, how many times have i got to pay for your sins? im getting tired, im getting tired!
The people you call my family, were people you didnt want, children that were along side the road that there parents had kicked out, so i took em' to my garbage dump and fed em' and taught em' in love there is no wrong, everything they've done, they've done for love of brother.

- charlse manson

fuck being mature!
it only hurts..
but being immature hurts the people around me =/

i wish i was a kid again
being oblivious to things sounds sweet right about now..

she knows i love her
and that i dont mean to cause her any pain
i just wish she would open up more...

if she's so scared why does she stay? :(

i do understand...
dont tell me i don't...
but i cant mind read, so it's hard to know how your feeling when you don't tell me =/
i wish you would tell my every single little deatail of how your feeling instead of bottling it up =/
because im worried about you :(

i wasn't trying to make you feel bad
i just thought you were getting bored of me and felt unwanted :(

i know ive not been the greatest help
but its hard for me too...
i hope you understand =/

fine talk to other people its not like it bothers me or anything =/
i no longer hate myself but others....

i realised that i want to collect all the old awesome games that used to scare me in my childhood
games such as resident evil and silent hill
lately ive watched the films and played the games and i realised they arnt as scary as i thought they would be :)
especially not as scary as i remeber from when i were a child :P
im also going to get all the awesome game consoles from back in the day :D
gonna be a retro kid ;D ooohh yeah ;)